When I was 2 years old, my mother was diagnosed with cancer. My father was absent, working away from home. I have no memories of being cared for by my mother during my childhood. What I do remember is her lying in bed with a frown on her face, unable to pursue her dreams and care for her beloved children. After a major surgery that removed her entire stomach and a few other organs, she narrowly survived.

Despite this, her battle with illness continued, and one day, my older sister and I were sent to live at my father’s parents’ home in Nagano. I don’t remember much about that time, but what remains deeply in my heart is the sight of my father and sister leaving the house. They left me behind while I was playing nearby. I stared at the quiet room, feeling their backs moving away from me. It made me feel like the connection I had believed to be absolute had been completely cut off. Later, I heard that my father had decided to take my sister back home because she had reached her limit and couldn’t bear living apart from our parents. At that moment, all I could do was cry and scream.

It was the moment when the bond I believed in was cut. For a child, living apart from my parents and watching that connection being broken before my eyes was a harsh reality. At the same time, this experience forced me to decide, "I must survive in this world on my own." That determination gradually gave birth to loneliness and obsessive tendencies, shaping a distorted way of living.

In the first half of my life, I disliked depending on others and being depended upon. I lived each day trying to enhance my performance in various areas, determined to survive "all on my own." From studying and sports to housework like cooking, laundry, and cleaning— every day I struggled to complete everything perfectly. However, the harder I worked to eliminate the fear of having no one to rely on, the deeper and emptier the loneliness grew. It took me a long time to realise that my actions and efforts to erase my fears were actually creating an undesirable reality, leading to a less fulfilling life.

The turning point came after my "escape abroad" right after graduating from university. I decided to leave Japan to escape the despair of feeling like nobody. I was exhausted from competition and afraid of others' judgment.

However, even after leaving for overseas, the despair and hate for myself didn’t disappear. They continued to hold me back. Only time passed quickly, and before I knew it, almost a year had gone by. Then, just a month before returning to Japan, I had an encounter that changed my life.

It was an encounter with a mentor who reached out to me, a young guy with nothing at the time. I will never forget the gratitude I felt when he unconditionally accepted me back then and the deep impression of his continuous support to this day.

My mentor’s guidance fundamentally transformed my way of living. Through the lessons I learned from him, I cultivated a sense of self-esteem and self-acceptance, allowing me to live each day actively based on my own will and values. Being honest with myself gave me a deep sense of fulfilment, which became the driving force behind my actions.

What I received from him was not just a method for achieving results or goals — it was a way of life itself. Then I realised how valuable it is to have a source of emotional support, not a parent or a friend, but someone I can truly trust. It means having a treasure that is more valuable than anything else.

I also came to understand just how much wisdom and vitality having such a source of emotional support could provide. I believe these are the things everyone should be able to enjoy. I think everyone is unconsciously seeking an emotionally secure base that provides a deep sense of security. It was truly a "miraculous" event that I got to experience this.

Eventually, based on my childhood experiences, I chose to become an emotionally secure base for others. This commitment is embodied in “Kabe-Uchiya” by SECURE HOME. I’ll never forget how sad, lonely, and tormented by obsessive fears I was. That's why I started this service, with the desire to share everything I've been given with others who may have similar experiences.